Are we peaking?

 

People always refer to their young adult years as the best times of their lives. The lack of responsibility, freedom and drunken antics that surrond University years. Well I'm not going to lie, past the expensive rent and lethargic hung over mornings I'm having a blast. Although I'm doing full time University, I'm barely there compared to high school and really most of my time is filled up with being an inner city scum bag, running around the place in a drunken delusion.


 I feel no guilt for that, this is our time to be young and reckless. But the fear of this being the peak of my life scares me cold, what will the next 60+ years be? Controlled, composed and calculated? Will I graduate and BAM be all responsible and boring? Wearing suits, walking in line, paying taxes, having kids and being a good citizen? This idea makes me feel sick. Don't get me wrong a lovely home and kids one day will be wonderful but I'm pretty attached to my stay up all night, have no plan lifestyle.


Then on another note we are already half way through first year, next year undoubtedly will be harder and require more focus and well I'll be out of the chaos of uni accom and probably in a more sensible shared house situation where we don't run through the foyer screaming "happy monday" plastered off our faces. It's all quite tragic, I feel nostalgic and its not even over. I don't want to grow up, I want to stay forever young and silly.


But then again when I think about my life now its all rather useless, we add nothing to nothing, all we do is for the sake of it and we really have no purpose or value. And that is my peak? Parties, reading in the park, glazing over in lectures, staying up all night? There has to be more things later to peak at, what if I live over seas in some crazy exciting job? There has to be more than just a blur of young drunken fun. Oh God, tell me there is more.



at some point we all succumb, 
for goodness sake let us be young
cause time gets harder to out run 
and I'm no body I'm not done
with a cool cool breeze and dirty knees
I rest on childhood memories 
we all got old at break neck speed
slow it down go easy on me 


Just like any moral dilemma, deep thought or rough patch I look to music and somehow the Vaccines have managed to capture this feeling of fleeting youth and regret into a song. Have a listen and enjoy, it's filled with awesome photos.